January 3, 2017
I went to put some laundry away, but before I even grabbed an article of clothing, I stopped, closed my eyes, and started swaying to the music in the background. I had never heard the song before so I had no idea what the lyrics were about. I put my arms on top of my head and just slowly swayed side-to-side to the rhythm of the music. Everything in my mind, my thoughts, my feelings, they all disappeared. I could feel His presence surround me, consume me, overtake me.
And there I was, in an elegant red ballroom gown that went all the way down to the floor with shiny sequins catching the light as I continued to dance. White gloves covered my hands and went all the way up to my elbows. My hair was curled; half put up and flawlessly hanging down my back, swaying to the left and right just as my feet caused my entire body to do. There He was, in the most astonishing tux with a red rose blooming out of his jacket pocket. His complexion was so bright and breath taking and His eyes were warm and comforting. His smile distracted me from everything else going on around me. I felt such a deep admiration and honor being in His presence.
He was dancing with me. His left hand in my right hand and his right hand pressed against my back while my left hand rested gently on His shoulder. We were dancing according to the music playing in the background, a little upbeat but slow at the same time. I could not stop smiling as He looked into my eyes. He smiled back at me and said, “Jerrika, you’re so beautiful. Everything about you is just amazing. You will always have a glow in your spirit that will always have people desiring to be around you. Why do you run from that?” I looked away, uncertain how to answer His question. He then asked, “Why do you run from Me, searching for approval from others and things that don’t even matter? You have Me, am I not enough for you? No matter how far you run, I will always be there with you. I’m never going to let you go. I love you too much to just let you go. I’m not like everyone else. I don’t just come and go. I will always be here to stay, forever, if you allow Me to. Let Me be everything that you need. Let Me take care of you and you won’t need to fill your life with people and things that will only bring you down. Please?” Our eyes met, I smiled, nodded my head, and said, “Okay”.
Tears rolled down my face. His love, His passion, His heart for me, leaves me speechless, in awe and wonder. He is so in love with me and no love from anyone on earth can compare. Jesus is my one and only true love. He’s the only one who can make me abundantly happy. He knows my every need and He satisfies it. I’m done looking for love, instead, allowing Him to consume me with His love. His arms are the most loving, caring, and comforting. No matter where I go or how far I go, He will always find me and confess His undying love for me. It’s time for me to stop running from Him and to embrace all of His love for me because it is the only love that I will ever need.